day 73

i am horrible at defining
compassion
and
you are horrible at showing
compassion
i used to love you like
holding our worlds
seven seas apart
would numb the pain/ i have
splinters on my fingertips from
building waterproof sailboats
they are waterproof
just not
durable
i  never cared to shave down the surface
to make smooth criminals out of us
we have committed sin after
sin after sin
after we don't know what is right for each other anymore
after i will leave these splinters to
soak in and become a part of me
after every new sailboat i find myself falling in love in
the more i allow more to sink
to drown
to breathe a last gulp of compassion
whatever that means.