day 307

I stopped ignoring her calls once I turned eighteen. I'm not scared of my mother anymore. Hide a whole lot of bitterness and lost light for years. We have an unhealthy relationship. I don't try to fix it anymore. Run away for what seems like a lifetime and mother probably feels heartbroken. I don't know how to be the light anymore. I am so tired. So sad and so upset with too much. Myself maybe. I'll keep the blame to myself. I am trying to be better, mother. I am trying to forget. And heal.