Sunday, October 7, 2012

day 21

Today
I painted
Flowers in my hair
17
Sweet petals
She loves me she loves me
Not
She is me
Sometimes I'm tired of dreaming
But this is okay
That's how I was born
-19

Saturday, October 6, 2012

day 20

Quite content with the
   way the shore seems to hug you.

No more heaviness.


please

Friday, October 5, 2012

day 19

Today we went to a show

we shared a cigarette
and nachos


There is something in the air
that makes me want to become a better lover

Thursday, October 4, 2012

day 18

I know you will read this.

I know
I will never show you this
but I know
some how
you will find a way to see this.

There is a special place for you
in my soul.
I will leave you nameless
until the day we walk hand in hand
towards the sunlight
praying to the warmth that left for comfort
We are all just worn out toys
on the stoops of graduates

One day
they'll congratulate us
Happy loving

One day.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

day 17

If I had a dollar
for every time
I wish I was 17 again

I'd be really rich

and in the sense where money doesn't matter
and I would just be so rich
off of my youth
my naivety
my courage
and my strength
Someday
I will feel the same

I am still test driving nineteen

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

day 16

My focus is on other things today
same as yesterday,
as always,
I am still drawn towards the past of everything.

The word "still"
has become almost native tongue to me.
Sometimes I don't want to stand still
I want to surrounded by the stillness of breath
and breathing
and life
and living
and sightseeing
and just being happy.


It's a common thread shared by everyone.


At the end of the day,
we are in the same state as we have woken up,
even if it isn't what you want to accept.

One day you'll realize it's all a circle.
But life shouldn't be different everyday.
Just some days.
Some days when you wake up
the air isn't still
and it's windy
and the seasons have changed.

But ultimately
waking up and loving who you are today
will always
be the best gift you can give yourself.

We can all try a little harder to be happy.


Today I want to try to be happier.
Tonight I want to go to bed and still try to be happier tomorrow.
Tomorrow morning I want to wake up
trying to be happier.
It will all happen eventually.



trust

Monday, October 1, 2012

day 15

I only wanted to hear the rain drizzle this morning.
Not myself.

(Eh)

It's October
some facts that hold true to who I am today:

- I still cry almost everyday
- I still practice my Jack the Ripper piece in the shower
(just in case a serial killer tries to kill me while I'm showering)
 ((I know in this case, they would be to confused to hurt me))
- I look the same naked as I did last month
- Sometimes I still want the same things
- Most times I know what I should want
- Needing someone or something or some days aren't always necessary

- I just want to have days to myself
- This has been the same since I turned 11
-
- Blank is always okay