day 160

I feel overwhelmed
often and hard

Spending a Friday night at a mall filled with couples is torture
I blame my emotions on bitterness
and feeling lonely

I miss the way his hands grip mine
That is what I wish for the most
He has made me believe in 11:11
and fairy tales
and happy endings
and long distance relationships

He has taught me patience
and unconditional love
That a laugh means more than tears
and being hunched over after laughing is one of the best feelings to have

Sometimes I still want to cry
I miss him often and I miss him hard
I am overwhelmed by how many "I Wish You Were Heres"
and the "don't worry he'll be backs"
I wake up wishing for him touching my skin
He is becoming muscle memory
I am learning to love him every day
Love overwhelms me
He is worth every emotion