day 164

I will learn to love you with patience. In time I will learn to forget muscle memory. I will soon forget how to fit into the curves of a past lover. I think of old skin and I tremble. I wash bed sheets with new mornings to try to get rid of the evidence. I will learn to accept the way my body has warmed up to the touch of a new stranger. I am ready to face shy sunshines and nervous hands. I am ready to walk away, to forget persistence, to always remember worth. I miss you dearly and I miss you often. I wake up before the sun does and I wait for it to come home. It's the only way I know we are connected, through warmth and light. The sun doesn't rise at the same time everyday. I am learning patience. I will learn to love you with patience.