She said to me, "I'm not the kind of girl that guys like. I'm not like you. Guys like you."
I live on a boat and I float on guilt. It is the difference between oil and water. I just float by and tell you I miss you, or I love you, or I act like I care how you're doing. I don't. I haven't cared in awhile, but when I do, it's only when I'm lonely. I haven't shared my thoughts or my body with another being in awhile. It terrifies me. I have always been the girl with a boyfriend. The, what? Already? Another? that kind of girl. I am finding myself not interested. I am not sure if this is because I have exposed myself to so many, if this is because I know too much about others, or if this is because I just don't want to get so heavy anymore. It is so difficult to live with yourself when your heart is heavy and your soul is hollow.
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