Sunday, June 30, 2013

day 288

mum's still friends with my abuser's mother
I wonder if she thinks any differently about her after I've confessed
mum came home from grilling steak and veggie kabobs
families grill on hot summer Sundays

felt very distant from mum today
I wonder if she thinks I think any differently about her 
I'm not as angry as I should be
just a little sad

sometimes I think maybe this wouldn't have happened if dad were alive
Oops
but he is alive
more like dead beat for the past twenty years

dad doesn't know my sister's birthday
he tells me he's sad because she ignores him
I wonder if he knows the difference between ignore and neglect
abandonment

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