day 169

Learning military time to spend time with your boyfriend

1
I've learned phrases that make me happy
like liberty
or civilian
or I get to use my phone
I have wifi there
I will call you at 2000
at 1700

2 I've learned phrases that make my heart sink
like fire watch
guard duty
No I cannot use my phone
I miss you
You are the most beautiful

3 going to the mall is torturous
and so is eating lunch alone
At times I will share the elevator with other military men
I pretend they are you
I forget how little I am in your hands
I melt

4
Feeling small has become empowering
I am no longer overwhelmed by the truth of my size
I like to be tiny
He is the bigger person for the both of us
I've learned phrases that make me numb
like I can't wait to see you
I hope your day is wonderful
Good night to the most beautiful girl I know
One day I will marry you

(5 one day I just may marry you.)